We often comfort ourselves with the thought, “We’ll get the answers someday, when we get to heaven.” That somehow, everything will make sense. But I’m not so sure it will be about getting answers. I think we just won’t need them anymore. In the presence of God, the questions will lose their urgency. The why won’t matter, not because it’s finally solved, but because it’s finally surrendered.
And that makes me wonder: what if I lived with that same mindset right now?
What if I stopped needing everything to line up? What if I could let go of the demand to understand the reasons, the timing, the purpose? We spend so much of life trying to piece it together; why this happened, how it connects, what it’s all supposed to mean.
Maybe faith is living like it doesn’t matter. Not in a reckless, indifferent way, but in a deeply trusting way. Trusting that even if I never understand the why, I’m still being held by the Who. There are nights when the weight of life grows heavy, when the fears echo loudest, and the darkness in my thoughts clouds any sense of direction. The path ahead feels invisible. The tears come without warning. In that space, the need to know why only makes the pain feel heavier. But even there, especially there, comes the invitation: Call upon the Healer. Pray for peace in the unknown. Trust in the unseen.
Living like it doesn’t matter is not about giving up on meaning. It’s about laying down my need to define it. It’s remembering that God’s story for me isn’t always going to make sense in the moment, but it’s still good. All things work together for good – not because I see it now, but because I believe in the One who does (Romans 8:28).
To live this way is to live humbly, patiently. To love even when life doesn’t feel fair. To kneel before grace instead of demanding clarity. It’s to say, I will still live a life worthy of the calling I’ve received, even if I never understand the full picture. There will still be tears. There will still be trials that feel unnecessary and moments where I question God’s plan.
Living as if the answers don’t matter right now is living in surrender. It’s not passive, it’s powerful. It’s choosing to keep walking when the “why” stays silent. It’s believing God is carrying me when I have no strength left to move. It’s knowing that even if the questions linger for the rest of my life, they won’t follow me into eternity.
Because in the presence of the King… it just won’t matter anymore. So why not start living like that now?
Thanks for the thoughtful devotional. It makes a lot of sense. Keep the devotional coming. Lots of love, Maureen
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